MY LIMITATIONS ....

JAI GURUDEV
Dearest Maa,

Guruji has told "a liar is an innocent" , as we know that (s)he is lying. (S)He does not know how to make a lie in life. I also did so.

I am very unstable here managing my expenditures, even if I received all financial back ups from my family. Everytime I visit you or Bapa, I get my fare along with some additional tips.I get back each and everybuck I spent for Papan and you.

My success in my money management is limited to the word "TRYING, TRYING & TRYING"....

My eyes itch everytime now-n-days and I get teared all time very un-comfortable outside mess, as very dusty atmospere here. I think some infections are there.
My had, face,hands,neck start itching, after 5 minutes I keep my feet outside.

These all happen and happen & I dnt tell them to you as I dont have any answer to your how and why question.

My studies also not going so well.Everytime i think of its future a black or a loser seems to happen.

Guruji says ,"When you feel lonely in crowd then know t is spirituality." But it should bring happness. But I am suffering. How can I accept it? It is not fair. I am setting my rudeness back.

Not able to have a meal today due to money, I searched two times in ATM for funds.

But i never got angry upon you, rather I rested my anger upon Ankit, Telis, Bijoy, Om.

Now I am not same Kanha, Maa, who was before a Diamond. Now I make failure in my past as a pillar of present ignorance of studies. I feel it, Maa , I do it, but cant resist myself. So changed that, I am going sort of space, words, but did not think , what you will think knowing all this & asking how are you ?

So self selfish...

Respect

Kanha

HENCE A NEW PRACTICE BEGINS.........

The title was actually copyright reserved by H.H. Sri Sri Ravisankar.
I believe it to be a new practice as i have to manage aliitle bit more time for this practice to continue;
hence i will be having greater efficiency.
World will read my thoughts or not i dont know but i m pure here...
Soi will be back n seven days with my dark side as myfirst blog..